Greetings and salutations! In my last post, I mentioned that there had been a bit of hiatus over here, and that I would address it in my next post. Well, we are here at the next post. So let me share some things that have been on my brain and on my heart.
When I started this site (over on Tumblr like 9 years ago!) I just wanted to talk about clothes. I had a lot to say about clothes and style and why I liked to wear what I wore. And more importantly, why I wanted other people to feel good about wearing what they wore. And I did it and it was fun. Yay for blogging!!
Gratuitous makeup picture, because I did a great job on my face this weekend!
But over time, I had more to talk about. I talked about self-injury and depression. I talked about body image and makeup. I talked about death and life. But mostly, I shared ME. In all of my forms and fashions. As my life and my soul evolved, so did my blog.
But in the last year or so, I found myself holding back on a lot of things. Stories came and went, outrages burned and died out, and I say silent. I bought cool clothes, but never photographed them. I talked about makeup, and goals, and tiptoed into controversy. But for the most part, I faded into the background of my own story.
So where do I go now?
At first, I agonized; Is this the end of my blog? Where is this blog even going? Do I have anything worthwhile to say? And I realized that this is not the end, this blog is going somewhere, and I do have important things to say.
The biggest issue facing me (and my blog) is that I AM AFRAID OF SUCCESS.
Real honesty right here, y’all.
I’m afraid to give something – anything- my all because I just might succeed. And that scares me. Because I don’t know what that feels like, and I’d rather stay in the sad, dull, comfort of my current life. So I’m making some changes, and I’m upping my game! I don’t know what the future holds for me, my blog, and my work. But I can’t keep doing the same things and expecting different results.
So I’m going to give it 110% and see how things shake out. I’m going to take the outfit pics I’m scared to take, I’m going to share my thoughts on things that are on my heart, and I’m going to put it all out there. Because I’ve spent a long time holding back in so many areas of my life, and I’m just over it. I’m willing to tiptoe into the unknown and see what happens.
Who’s with me??